I quickly learned that a snitch is a worse label than a fag. "I dared not report anything because I was clearly warned that my life would be in jeopardy should I do so. I had no means to protect myself, being only 23 and scared for my life. After being raped, I performed acts by request. "My first week or so in general population was hell on earth.
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The prison he was first sent to did actually have a separate tier for gay inmates, but according to Rodney, because he did not "appear overly effeminate" during his classification, he was placed with the general population and because it was supposedly rare to have a gay person slip through the cracks of the system, his fellow inmates took full advantage. Within days of his first entering prison, the 23-year-old Rodney claimed he was the victim of three separate sexual assaults, involving five different inmates. His account suggests that far from being a paradise, prison for gay men can be a living hell. He described a litany of brutal rapes, assaults, beatings and, eventually, the total abandonment of his male identity as his only means of survival in the hyper-masculine and often homophobic prison environment. One young man named Rodney, imprisoned for fraud and check-forging, sent me a detailed account of his life so far in prison. The reality of life in prison for homosexuals and transgender individuals does not appear to reflect this myth. His death sentence was later overturned (mostly because Burdine's public defender had slept through much of his trial), but the homophobic thinking – that prison is some kind of paradise for gay men – lingers on. After 17 minutes of deliberation, the jury obliged and sentenced Burdine to die. But other than that, I never had any disturbing event till I became 21.īe patient we’ll get there… At this point I’m still 20.I n 1984, when Calvin Burdine was awaiting sentencing for allegedly stabbing his gay lover to death, the prosecuting attorney encouraged the jury in his closing remarks to award Burdine the death penalty, rather than life in prison, on the grounds that sending a gay man to prison was akin to sending a kid to a candy store. I’d also witnessed only one disturbing event regarding homosexuality a Pakistani guy being killed for being gay in KSA, I was 15 back then. SO, no major aBUT I have to mention a few harassments, not sexual ones THANK GOD, but they caused quite a disturbance in my relationship with my father back then. (The Taurus thing kicks again :P)Īnyway, one day I decided enough is enough, I’m ready to act upon my sexual desires & identity. I’m still friends with her till now, what can I do? I’m adorable. So, I did accept the fact that I’m gay at a young age I was 19 & a few months, nevertheless I had to prove it to myself, so (hold your breath guys) I had sex with a woman (ewwwwww, I know), & actually maintained a relationship with her for over 10 months. Anyway, I have mentioned a summarized conclusion in my other blog. After almost 13 months, I came to the conclusion that Islam agrees with that study, but never state a clear statement about gay sexual activities, or whether homosexuals are accepted in “the Kingdom of Heaven” per say.įor those who are wondering about Lut story in the Quran, the whole concept is misunderstood & misinterpreted, they were not punished for being homosexuals as the flow of the story events tells. Never been lucky with the Christian ones, but thanks to my grandfather’s & father’s reputations, I was able to have access to many rare Muslim books. I had to do my research, then studied Muslim and Christians Scripts, to know where religions stand from one’s sexual identity. There, I heard of that “new”, back then, study about being “born gay”.
(HEY, I’m a Taurus, I HAVE to brag a little… LOL) Poor me ? I got my first “public” hard on at 13, when I saw a gorgeous teacher he was 25, so who can blame me? huh?ĭenial: We’ve all gone through that phase, haven’t we? Well, for me it was between the age of 14 till 18.Īcceptance: Luckily for me, I enrolled in Med School, always been a bright student. Puberty: I remember starting getting all the puberty signs at the age of 12 years old. Grown in a very religious family, grandfather was a Sheikh & Islamic activist, not a terrorist btw for those of you who might think wrongfully that all Muslim activists are terrorists, but he was strict enough.
UFFFFFĪnyway, I thought of starting with quick facts:īorn in 1975, moved to KSA (Saudi Arabia) with family in 1979, to live in the Holy City of Medina. I have been writing, deleting, rewriting over & over now. I never thought telling my story would be that hard.